Sitting on my bedroom floor. Knees to chest. Snot running down my face, trying to keep my sobs quiet. Luke 15:11-24 told my story centuries before I was born. But, let me explain what this has to do with Brought Back, and why you care.
I knew God. But, I wanted what I wanted. And, eventually, things started to crash. When my dad died, I fell apart. He was the foundation to my “faith”, and one of my primary sources of identity. So, I invited depression in, fed it, and gave it a bed. And, the cherry on top? You can’t serve two masters. So I abandoned God.
What I didn’t realize: Abandoning God = Choosing death. Anyone abandoning God chooses spiritual death. But, I was also choosing physical death. December of 2022, laying on my basement floor. I had a suicide plan, a backup plan, and a backup for the backup. …but I couldn’t move…
God stopped me. And I hated Him for it.
Eventually, by the grace of God…I realized that, just maybe, there was a reason I was alive
It took months before I was ready to let go. May 14th, 2022, I gave my life back to Christ.
-I knew God. I abandoned God. He didn’t abandon me-
So why was I sobbing on my bedroom floor? It was a moment in a series of moments. Some of which you’ll read about through this blog. But, why? Why the blog, and why the moments?
Because the Gospel is actually good news, And some people need to be Brought Back to that.
The reality is: when you walk away from God, you choose a living hell. It wasn’t until I started to experience a real relationship with Jesus, that I realized just how horrible that living hell is. I’m not here to shame you. I have no right to judge you; nor do I want to.
But, I can’t just not tell you about the freedom that is available.
I was addicted to masturbation and pornography for over 10 years. –But God broke that addiction, and is constantly showing me my value and what He intended intimacy to be. I was addicted to nicotine and energy drinks. –But God broke that addiction and taught me healthy coping skills and how to walk in faith. I had horrible insomnia, and when I could sleep, I would have nightmares. –But God healed my sleep, and every night and morning I’m reminded that He’s fully trustworthy. I didn’t think people would actually love me and care about me. –But God didn’t just put “ride or dies” in my life, He surrounded me with people that love like He does, live out the Bible, speak His words, and puts Him first. I could go on... The point is, there is freedom you can’t even imagine.
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